Blaise where are you? We need you right now. I can't raise them myself. If only you hadn't turned to my father. I thought leaning against the window looking out at the scenery that lay in front of me. Maybe he'd be able to get away soon and I won't have to worry about what might happen to him. I don't want my children to grow up not knowing their father. I can't do this whole raising three kids by myself thing. I know his mother would be willing to help but it's not the same, if anything bad happens to him I'll never forgive myself.
It had now been a few weeks since I had come to Zabini Manor, Blaise had sent me another letter this morning stating that he was close to escaping from my father's inner circle at which point we would stay here for one extra day and then go back into hiding. That way we wouldn't be endangering his mother's life, but she'd at least get to see him before we had to leave even though it was two weeks away, but that just meant that she'd have more time to spend with her grandchildren and hopefully soon-to-be daughter-in-law. I'm just hoping nothing happens to him and he gets here safely.
I just wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to him, I'd completely go off my rocker and blame myself for pushing him away and ignoring his letters that he sent me all those weeks causing him to go to my father and possibly endangering his life. If I was the cause for the love of my life to die I would just die myself either from the guilt or the fact that he was gone.