angelfxybaby (angelfxybaby) wrote,

Why do I seem so close to tears most days? This is one of those days that I wish I'd never started dating Brando, especially when I had an amazing guy that would wait for me until I was done with my six year contract.

Lately I've been thinking about the weekend I graduated from Boot Camp and my parents and sister had just left, I picked up the payphone and called the one person I knew I could count on. I just remember telling him about how much it sucked that my family had just left, that I didn't know when I would see them again, and that I really wished that he would have been able to come up and see me. Even being so far away from me he made me love him more by telling me things would get better, that he missed me so much and that he couldn't wait until I would be able to come home so he could see me again, so he could hold me again.

It makes me sad to think that I probably had one of the greatest guys out there and I let him get away. I try to act and have acted since then like it doesn't affect me as much as it does, but it kills me inside when I think about it.

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